Hey Emo Kid...

The Perfect Match

This is me,

a self portrait taken

autumn 2007.

This is a pendant made by

Laney Clark's Art Jewelry Studio.

And it would, of course, be perfect for me.

"Happy birthday you crazy Finnish chick"

{This photo is taken by a guy I met a long ago
and whose name I don't remember anymore}

Cause my 23rd birthday appears to be a list day, I wrote a list with 23 worthless facts about myself. WARNING: may contain too much information. Don't use against your doctor's orders.

- Sometimes I act more like a cat than a girl.
- I love red shoes.
- I don't give a damn what strangers think about my style, but I'm always wondering what my mum would say.
- I'm afraid of motorways, elevators and gas cookers.
- I'm great with kids if I want to. Usually even when I don't want to.
- I've met three different psychologists to speak about my life.
- I got my first kiss when I was 18 and it was far too slimy.
- I buy books by their covers.
- I love photographing but hate being photographed.
- I love everything small and shiny, especially silver spoons.
- I can't sing at all, but I still do it.
- I don't like washing dishes because I hate the feeling when the dish brush scratches my hands.
- I'm addicted to blogs and blogging (at the moment, my addictions always vary from time to time).
- I can bake wonderful chocolate cakes.
- I put so much sugar in my tea it's almost like using tea with my sugar, not the other way round.
- In the evenings, before I fell asleep, I used to tell love stories to myself. Nowadays I think of cats before I fall asleep.
- I cry every time I watch Love, Actually.
- I hate sweetcorn.
- I never drink energy drinks or coffee, cause I'm afraid they'll make me too hyper.
- In my opinion everybody should recycle, but when I'm tired I sometimes stop caring and just throw everything into same bin. Afterwards I feel guilty.
- I am a bit lazy and I know it.
- I buy cookie cutters I never use just because of their fancy shapes. My collection includes i.e. a cat, a tooth, an elephant, a camel and four different dinosaurs.
- I suck at mathematics.

My name is Cat, Copycat

Hands off! This was my idea first...

I found myself in Camden market today. I guess I should say 'again', cause this was my third time in there. And I still found some new parts of the market I haven't seen before. It really is one of my favourite places in London. I love all the creative products and the lively atmosphere. I love just to wander around looking at things and getting new ideas. Every time I see things I love, and things I would prefer done some other way.

And on the other hand, going to Camden makes me feel very usual. Every time I find out that somebody else somewhere else has thought the same way I did and got the same idea. Every time I find jewelry I've already done or have been planning to do, created by someone else. It makes me a bit sad. There sure is a place for all of us and our jewelry in this big big world (even though I don't feel like a big big girl...oh, nobody gets the joke cause you don't remember that Swedish hit I used to listen to as a 12-year-old. Blah.) but it still sucks to find out you're not that unique you thought you were. And cause I hate to be a copycat, finding out that some of the ideas I created in my own little head have also been born in somebody else's head makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm always afraid they'll think I'm copying them even though I'm not. And still I know that ideas are free and anyone can use and modify them. You can't say to others that this idea is mine, you can't do the same. I don't even want to. Maybe I just have to stop comparing myself and my work to others, but how is it possible in this world? And if you don't see works of the others, where the hell can you get material for building your new ideas?

I wanna be extraordinary. I just wanna be me, and feel like a personality, not like one of many. Maybe the only way to do that is to stop caring what others do, and stop analyzing that much. Nothing is really unique, so if I'm gonna make a problem about that, I can't do anything anymore. So let's be happy and make earrings of lego bricks and buttons as hundreds of others before us.

I'm not the only one doing this...

Wednesday's wish

I wish I were taller.

Black and WTF

I am not a short woman. And I've still got problems getting books from upper shelves. Even with a kickstool. And I can't use the ladder anymore cause last time I did, I fell off it and now it has been removed from the library as a safety risk.
(I guess I should have told my colleagues it wasn't the first time I fell off somewhere. As the Dresden Dolls put it: "I'm not the carefullest of girls.")

In my mind there are treasures to find

[This is for Adele from Poptart]

If you were in my head for a day you would find...

- a lot of details piled neatly on the shelves
- piles of forgotten items in the corners
- things arranged by colors
- boxes full of memories
- tons of dust
- various dreams
- silly ideas
- creative plans
- little wishes
- pits and pieces all around
- things I've forgot
- bright light
- beautiful pictures
- annoying tunes
- dirty thoughts
- many questions
- something blue
- some desire
- a bit of shame hidden in the back
- lots of love
- a complicated system keeping things going
- and the big picture looking messy, but everything actually being in it's own place

(Picks borrowed from here, there, there and here.
Thank you!)

No Shame November

Misses Molly Yeh and Ema-Leigh made me think about the things I'm ashamed of. And then the things I should be ashamed of, but am not. The things I may even like even though it may not be socially acceptable. Inspired by those girls I wrote a list on my own, about things falling into category "I maybe should be ashamed of this but don't give a damn". Just to remind myself (and you) that it's not that serious, and there really is too much shame in our lives.
So I'll stop for apologising myself and continue doing these things without feeling bad about it. At least for the No Shame November.

1. I eat candies for breakfast. And enjoy it.
2. I cry a lot and shamelessly, even in public.
3. I tell dirty jokes even though people around me wouldn't be too pleased to hear them.
4. I post pathetic emo lyrics to my blog when I'm feeling blue.
5. I use the clothes I love even though I might look fat in them.
6. I'm not ashamed to admit that I love being naive. And acting naively even when I'm not.
7. I color up the truth when I'm telling a story. (But just a bit.)
8. I'm happy for my butt getting bigger.
9. I speak and write in English even though I know I make tons of mistakes. I just don't care.
10. I swear too much (like a pirate), also in public.

This is me, nice to meet you

I've always had a thing for new notebooks. Every time I'd like to change something in my life or start a new project, I buy a new notebook. Most of those notebooks are nowadays archieved in a long row of hardly used ones on my bookshelf. Usually I fill in just six pages or so, but in my opinion, it's enough. As long as it makes me feel organised.

I also think that the first page is the most important. It tells people who owns the notebook and what's in it. It also should warn them not to read my notes or put their noses is my business. But this time it's different. I warmly welcome all of you to read my notes in this notebook, and I really wish yo will share your thoughts with me and leave a lot of comments.

So, this time the first page is gonna tell something about me. Just that you know who you're dealing with. And if you choose to say, I'm sure you will get to know a part of me quite well.

My name is Inari.
I'm from Finland, but right now I'm working and living in London.
One day I'll become a librarian.
Other things I'd like to be are a photographer, a jewelry maker and a writer.
I love colours, soap bubbles, chocolate, cats, balloons, bookstores and my camera, of course.
I can be a bit moody sometimes, but when having a good day I can't help smiling. If the day happens to be very good, I may even be skipping a little when walking around.
I do have some wonderful friends, a nice family and an amazing boyfriend (yes dear, this amazing can be open to various interpretations.)

I have hundreds of buttons, a collection of nicely shaped stones and many plastic dinosaurs. I like old tins and love to have a cup of tea, especially with biscuits. If I could, I would spend more tome in weird museums, old record stores and cozy cafes.

Right now I am
dreaming about a perfect haircut
and smiling all the time
cause somehow this feels to be a good day,
and I'm also really happy of this new blog of mine.

So, nice to meet you.
Now it's your time to tell about about yourself. I'm listening.